look.. it's nt tat i wanna spread.. but everyone noes bout it dy.. and tat day.. when u came and scold me in class, i wasn't shocked at all.. i noe u'd come someday.. i don wanna make things worse.. u lyk him, juz tell him.. u don hv to hide and say tat u don.. at the end, u'll be the 1 who suffer.. but if u really don't lyk him.. then i'm sorry.. i didn't mean to say thiz.. but likin someone is nvr wrong.. so why are u gettin so angry bout me?? juz bcoz i noe tat u lyk him?? plz la.. everyone noes bout thiz dy.. and if i'm really wrong, i'm truly sorry.. one more thing.. i don fake.. it's up to u to believe or nt.. but if u think i'm fake, then go on.. u'll noe it 1 day.. watever u wanna do or say bout thiz.. i'll still be me.. i won't change bcoz of 1 thing u say.. and when u scold someone, plz make sure tat he/she is the culprit.. don juz go around messin wit ppl who doens't noe a thing.. and watever u say bout me or any other ppl, might as well turn out to be in u, urself.. so all the best.. and ya.. don go around pollutin ppl's blogs.. ppl write wat they want here.. and not for ppl to condamn it.. i hope u understand.. if u think i'm wrong, then i'm sorry.. til then..

it's finally over!! yay!! i've been fakin myself for such a long time.. though i felt sorry, but i had to do so.. u can't expect me to fake myself all the time ryt?? he was too controllin over me.. i'm sick of it!! arghhhh!!! damn.. and now he knows tat i'm waitin for someone.. it's kinda obvious who told him tat.. I KNOW WHO YOU ARE!! DAMN YOU!!! it's been a hard week.. i'm sorry for him.. but at least i'm myself again.. no faking anymore.. i hate fakers myself.. haha.. and there's no doubt tat i liked him b4 but it's juz a short period of time.. i don wann have a bf now.. i'm not ready.. i'll juz wait til "he" comes back.. plz come back quickly will ya?? i'm missin u like crazy!! haha.. let's get back to the topic.. he's juz so irritating.. i didn't reply him bcoz i slept.. then he get so angry of it.. he even wrote on my wall >> on facebook - but i deleted it.. haha.. cant stand to see his post on my wall.. it make me sick!! arghhh.. i'm very glad tat i'm free now!! FREE OUT OF HIS HANDS!!!!!! yay.. juz go man.. now tat u have ur life and i have mine, don come botherin me anymore.. if u do, u are juz like w** y**.. don b like him.. plz.. don come everyday disturbin me!! i don wanna hate u.. but u don make me.. or i will..!! juz cut thiz whole thing out man.. jus go on with ur great, excellent, superb results in ur studies.. i don seem to care!! argghhhhh!!! GET OUT OF MY LIFE U JERK!!!!

we won the competition!!!!!! yay.. after all the hard work we've put in, we deserve this!! haha.. i lurv all 3 jingga citizens!!!!!! way to go!!

ARGHHH!!!! I can't stanfd thiz anymore.. first i'm a ggod fren, then i'm not?? WAT THE?? why muz all of you be so so fake to me..?? i don get it.. why why why??!!!!!!!! even my own sister.. wat happened to her?? she's blamin me for helpin her??? blamin me for tellin her love 1 wat to do??? blamin me for bein so so damn bossy??!! i don get it.. i am her sister.. but why muz she do thiz to me?? now that she'd said tat, i won't do or say anythin anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz can't take it any longer.. it's been a long long long time.. i can't imagine how much i've hurt myself for the past few day!!!!!!! my heart is tearing apart!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't do this anymore.. i juz can't.. and to those ppl who are not supposed to be in this case, please mind your own bussiness.. don come bossin around tellin me wat i should or should not do.. wat the hell is ur problem??!!!!! u don like me for wat?? for bein so bossy over my sis' lover?? well... if it is so, why can't u juz tell me urself??? muz let my sis tell me stuffs tat u say.???? u are not tat goodalso rite?? havin a boyfriend but thinkin of someone else?? wat the ****.. i donb get u man.. juz stay out of this!!!!! i don wanna talk bout this anymore.. i juz can't bare with the pain and the misery in my damn heart now!! it's juz too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heylo there.. it's been awhile.. many many things have gone through my mind nowadays.. i am messaging this guy.. he's 2 years elder than me.. it's been quite some time since this had been goin on.. i think i am starting to fall for him like what i've fall for the other guy.. but here's the thing.. i think it's very very dangerous for me to like a guy now.. it's bcoz if i get hurt another time.. i'm not sure whether i can stand it anymore.. the first time had already left a very very very deep cut in my heart.. if it happens again.. i dunno what expect.. i wonder whether i could ever fall for any other guy ever again.. plz tell me what to do!! it really suck to have this burden with you all the time.. it gives you the fear to really fall for someone.. i'm really afraid that i might get hurt another time.. plz.. TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm really confused now.. i really hate to carry this heavy burden with me.. it hurts!!!!! A LOT!! =( i'm really afraid that he's jus giving my false hope.. no one has any idea how false hope can hurt me.. i really hate false hopes.. so, if you are attached, don give me false hope like someone else!!!!

hey there!! was really upset today.. i was in a meetin.. a meetin wit my chairman-we fought for about 3weeks- when he said smtg, i will juz tell him off.. he didn't attend the last meetin.. so it's kinda obvious tat he don't noe anythin.. then i juz tell him off.. after the meetin, we were havin table talk.. talkin bout the stuffs tat we done wrong and stuffs like tat.. i was quite quiet today.. so one of the helpers brought me out for a little while.. talkin bout the problems i face.. so i juz told him tat i'm sad for being blamed for everything.. then he called the chairman to talk to me.. in the whole table talk, i was crying.. well.. i was angry.. but i didn't meant to shout at him.. i juz needed to shout to release the misery in me.. i was sufferin for the past 3 weeks bcoz of this.. i don't wanna carry this burden anymore.. so yell.. the first time was normal.. the second time was louder.. and the last time was very very loud.. i felt bad about it.. don wanna have this feeling in me.. juz wish it's over.. hope tat things wil get better.. I'M REALLY SORRY DARREN YEO KHEE REI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm not sure why he is in my dreams this few day.. it's as if like i don have anyone else to dream of.. but this time, it's a little different.. here it goes.. i was with him and all his cousins (the cousins i noe) .. then i was there wit my form for sponsorship.. it was then when i started talkin to him.. i was askin for sponsors for some camp-which i'm not sure.. and then he said "u really want it from me?? can i not give u any??" and i answered "______, don so bad la.. i really need it la.. Please??" and he said in front of his cousins "if i don wanna give u $$ buti give you all my heart, will you take it??" i blushed and said "wat about your girl?? you two seem to be in love for quite some time dy.." he said " i don't even had a girl.. i was juz lying to you all the time.. trying to get your attention.. but u don't seem to be anxious.. u juz act like u don care.. which hurts me a lot".. "i am hurt everytime u said something sweet to tat someone-i dunno who.. it makes my heart bleed!!" i was crying when i said tat.. then he stood up and gave me a warm hug.. i was still crying-blaming him for lying to me, hitting his chest gently as if he is mine.. then he brought me somewhere very nice, cooling and romantic for dinner.. it was that time when i suddenly woke up.. thinking that this could not happen to me.. if it does, then it's a miracle!! i went to view his personal message ar his MSN.. it made me realise tat it was juz an ordinary dream of him!! i felt so stupid to think tat he actually broke up.. but i prefer it to be this way.. th's better than holdin a relationship.. although it hurts, it's ok with me.. i've been going through this for the past 4 months.. so.. i'll be fine!!